I don't know what to write.  I said this to myself, and realized that many times, I don't know what to say.  My spoken word doesn't always come out.  I know what I want to say, but prior to making sound, the words are gang tackled by my lips.  No one usually notices, but I do.
Emotions usually make this stumbling more apparent.  Getting my point across when I am emotional or excited, can be difficult at the very least.  Sometimes my point won't get made.  Frustration creeps in, and I either withdrawal or become angry.
Angry at myself, but often comes out directed at others.  My family bears most of my anger.  I have to apologize and make up with them later.  Knowing this about myself has been a struggle.
Denial has not been a good strategy.  I need to discuss this issue with my doctor, and come up with other ways to handle this change in my speech.  I wonder how many of the brain injured have dealt with this issue in silence.  Communication is important, and silence, in this case, is not golden.
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